It really is absolutely crazy to me that we are wishing another year in. I swear, the days just fly by so fast I am sometimes meeting myself coming and going. It was just a couple months ago I was getting back from Europe, then tackling Pinkadilly showroom changes, then holidays and here we are again starting it all over again.
I am not one that really sets resolutions for myself as the new year rolls in. It isn't that I don't believe in them, it is more that I set goals for myself. I try and work on things that I need to do to improve myself as a person, and that is hard!! In 2015 I turned 40 and I broke so many habits that I have done for over 20 years it is crazy to think of me not having those habits. My goal to start the next 40 years of my life without so many bad habits. I have been a smoker a majority of my life...and I love to smoke. BUT, we all know the reasons to quit. After my car was totaled and I was buying a new car I realized I didn't want it to smell like smoke. So I quit! *
I have had a massive addiction to lipgloss since I was about 16. My first lip addiction was with Carmex, and that addiction carried me thru my adult life when I then switched to another lip product that stupidly was just more expensive. It took me to weeks of weaning myself off and trying to live without slime on my lips, and now I am officially free of my lip balm addiction! And when I say it was an addiction, it was truly bad. I can't imagine the amount of "gunk" I have consumed! Besides that fact that this has been the first time in my life that I ever remember having chapped lips, my stomach and restroom issues have also massively changed. I know...weird. I won't go into detail, but shockingly different. And my final bad habit I had to break was picking my face. (I can't tell you how many hotel lamps I have broken from trying to pick my face...) I think it was my nightly wind down routine sadly. But, my vanity won out on that and I realized the damage I was doing to my face and I wasn't getting any younger so I also wiped out that bad habit. Note to self: never buy a magnifying mirror. EVER
In 2015 I worked on discovering again who Jenny is. Single after 20 years, living alone for the first time in my life, taking on a new career path...so many huge changes! I guess the universe just lined me up for a fresh start for my next 40 years of life.
One of my 2016 goals is to learn to stop, breathe....and to unplug near and afar. I think when traveling I have been able to shut my mind down because it is an out of site out of mind. Here I have really struggled with the balancing of maintaining a social life and spending time with those I love. It is hard! Anyone that is a workaholic you feel my pain. There is something in us that just has a drive to continue and to make things better. If I had the chance to work on (fill in the blank) or watch a movie or go to dinner with friends, without fail I have chosen to work. This year it will be different...2016 is the year I want to get back to enjoying life and those I love!
Most people would never guess that at the root of it I am horribly shy and have social anxiety. The thought of walking up to a stranger and having a conversation with them makes me want to vomit. I'm terrified! If I have to do as part of my job, I get it! But the having a social conversation, and remembering how to interact with people without being focused on getting a job done hasn't been the easiest for me, but I am working on it. Put in a training situation or a public speaking, I would way prefer that over a mix and mingle cocktail party. I know! Thus, why one of my mantra's for the year will involve becoming a social butterfly this year. :)
I am making a point this year to spend more time with people that I love. Enjoying my mom that is 83 years old...visiting people that I haven't made the time to just sit and catch up. Play cards or bingo with them, or my biggest challenge of learning to enjoy a dinner out. Food can be eaten in and the dinner enjoyed with conversation. My pile of papers will still be here after I get back and my to do list will still always overwhelm me. But I have realized that if that is the case either way, why am I not stopping to enjoy the journey and tackle those when I return.